at times...

...you feel like you've tried everything and frustration sets in when nothing goes your way.

it's the lack of energy.
it's the lack of interest.
it's the lack of passion.

that is making my school life so mediocre.

I feel like I am towing my body. I don't feel as energetic and as spontaneous as I felt back in Secondary School. I became afraid. Afraid of experiencing once I left my comfort zone.

It's horrifying. I am afraid to try. I am afraid to be out of my little box. I am afraid of changing. I am afraid. I say I am lazy. but really, it's more of a fear.

Let me join in the Grace Fu Fun :)

"When I made the decision to eat a lot in 1992, losing fats was not a key factor. Tightening collars, popping buttons from pants and panting after two flights of stairs were. The disruption to my allowance is also of important consideration. I had some ground to believe that my tummy would not experience drastic change in the amount inches but I had to buy free size pants instead. I fear if the balance is tilted further in the future, I will be left with no pants." –A

Drama

The saddest part about leaving is knowing that no one will be waiting for you to return.

Comedy is merely tragic wrapped with ridicule and exaggeration.

The only fight one should engage in is the fight for one's belief.

I can only be as human as you make me to be.

My favourite lines stuck in my hippocampus

How do I know I can trust you?
You don't. You just have to.

There is a very subtle difference between tolerance and acceptance.

Shy

Lol when others compliment me I feel shy

Also when others say I am sweet or nice because of something I said I'd feel lost too. That's because all I spoke of was the truth. It wasn't to appear nice or sweet but just honesty. But i do feel gleeful when such nice words are showered on me TT__TT it's not everyday I receive such kind words due to my excessive tongue in cheek comments lol

I know it's a little ironic. I am flourishing the adjectives given to me when others could have just been honest as well. But we can't possibly say 'awww you are so honest'

*giggles like a madwoman* whatever it is I am inclined to feel as though I am floating when positive adjectives are used to describe me. MAYBE BECAUSE THEY ARE RARE :D

Shy shy /)___(\

突然很害怕，因爲發現自己活得很茫然。

SNSD Singapore Concert 2011 10 Dec

• hyo is the cutest thing on earth.... seeing her irl is...crazy, they way she waves and smiles...
• Witnessing tiffany's eyesmiles, it's as though she is flirting to me... LOL
• Hyo and Fany came to our side and they went onto the elevator. Hyoyeon was waving and smiling and giving hearts, seeing her in real life will just make her rocket up any list you have (which i don't really do LOL). Tiffany kept making hearts too. Her eyes were hard to see and that's good n__n
• In genie when Tiffany said, "Singapore Put it Back On" a single drop of spit flew from her mouth in a projectile motion. it was pure physics beauty. I am really glad to be able to witnessed it xD WATCHING TIFFANY SPIT MAKES THIS CONCERT ALL WORTH IT TT__TT
• During Kissing You, Yulsic was at my diagonal left with Jessica backfacing me (for most of the whole concert actually), could see Yuri's eyesmiling while they did their pinky promise. WITNESSED YUL'S FLIRTY EXPRESSION TOWARDS JESSICA DURING KISSING YOU /faints
• Kept seeing Jessica's backview ~___~ she rarely turns to my side, oh well, I like her chunli hair ^___^
• Yuri came over to my side for 2 times but because people from the back ran up to the front, I couldn't really see her. I could see her white hat and really sharp nose ^___^
• Yuri dancing at the end and soshi obsession with chili crabs...
• After their supposed last song they asked why were we not sad and cheering LOL then tiffany translated saying that probably because the audience knew that it wasn't really their last song and she said, "well, for our PRETEND last song" So Cute :3
• WATCHING SICA'S SWEAT AND TAE'S SWEAT ON THE BIG HD SCREEN WAS THE BEST
• Taeyeon's hairstyle remained the same throughout-the braided fringe-even during Devil's Cry.
• Tiffany asked who was here yesterday (for the first night) and taeyeon jumped and said "ME ME ME" xD
• Sunny did her intro in her cutie voice CHEERED LIKE MADDDD AND SHE WORE THAT OUTFIT THAT SHOWCASED HER ASSETS ^___^
• Saw Yoona's pants disappeared from the backview lmao IT WAS AMAZING Especially when she hung onto the pole like a pro and kicked it off 
• During the intro for Bad Girl, we could see the girls (behind the screen) doing some dorky dance(or maybe it's the choreo lol)
• At the end, Jessica leaned her forehead against Yuri's back ^__^ Some guy shouted YULSIC! Then later sica stuffed her mic to fany's eye and the guy shouted "JETI" lol
• The girls shoving their mics into Tiffany’s face. Yuri was the one who held her mic like a boom while Jessica was just randomly shoving into Tiffany’s cheek then left eye ^___^
• Hyoyeon was dragged off by Sunny at the end kekeke they made faces to the camera ^___^ HYO IS REALLY SWEETTTT
• They said we were as passionate as our weather LMAO THAT'S REALLY PASSIONATE hahha
• Taeyeon was tearing up in the first few songs, i cannot even rmb the song LOL 
• During the fan event for complete sica and tae cried ^___^
• When Tiffany said it was the last song and the concert is about to end, we all went "NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO"
• Man when Jessica asked if we would like to have them come back next year (or was it tiff LOL), we were like YESSSSSS
• Jessica during Gee was like My... And....My.... Because she kept putting her mic in front for the audience to continue ^___^.
• Let it Rain was so beautiful and graceful. The way they move their hands to illustrate rain or something. Then the lipton CF had to surface
• I think there was a Jeti moment in the intro of Gee. Tiffany said something (I presume to be dorky) and Jessica laughed while tiff eyesmiled
• Yuri was the one being squashed in himnae instead of Jessica lol
• Hi, I have one more fanaccount ok. USFHUASHKAJLDJAD YURI'S JACKET SLIPPED OFF IN THE GREAT ESCAPE AND I SAW HER SHOULDER.... :Q____________ YURI'S SHOULDER WHILE SHE MOVE TO THE BEAT IN REAL LIFE.... *faints*
• Sooyoung’s “I love you more than Chili Crab” and "Sones make SNSD's lives complete"
• At the end, Syoo and yoong danced to express their emotions kekeke
• Taeyeon said that she has a lot to express in words and mentioned in her talk that she came to Singapore last year with her parents on a trip
• She also said the fans are as passionate as the weather here xD (in case you didn't know, Singapore is super hot and humid nowadays ~___~)

I love it when the girls smile happily. The whole atmosphere was just so beautiful.

I think it's safe to say SNSD makes Sones' lives Complete